I haven't written on this in a really long time.
That always seems to be my habit. I don't know if that will ever break.
But I'm glad its here for times when I need it.

I need to say, before I forget, right this minute, I am happy.

Things aren't all exactly as I'd like them to be. I miss love. I miss free time. I miss complete stability...but in its place, I can feel life changing in quietly monumental ways. And it feels good.


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Do you ever feel surprised and impressed that you've made it this far? Like you don't remember when you stopped being a child and became something else? Someone else? Lately, I can actually feel time pass...like the weight of the wind when you stick your hand out the window of a moving car. I sort of feel like I'm in that thick, constant wind.
And it's not scary.
It's just there.

I don't even know what I'm trying to say. But I needed to write that down.